Nineteen

I really do try to make this blog stupid. I mean, that's my goal (you can EASILY tell by my previous posts) but I can't really put this post on my "everyday blog" because it's...too big? AND it just doesn't fit. I guess. So here we go, bear with me...or don't.

Well, I'm nineteen now, so different than eighteen, right? Okay, maybe not. But it feels surprisingly different. It's not exactly a monumental birthday...not a sweet 16, legal adult 18, super awesome drinking 21..or anything like that, but it really has got me thinking. The year has sped by so quickly, and everything has changed so much. Friends coming and going...friends changing...me changing. Everything is different and so much harder. Also, before I continue...

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I kid I kid. Well, I'm serious, but I'm not. You know? You know. We're good. Here we go.
Back to friends coming and going. It's all a part of growing up I guess, which makes me sound super young, but it is. People grow and people grow apart.  It seems that a lot of people have a "forever friend" not someone they will be friends with forever and ever (although I'd like to think so) but someone they've been friends with "for forever".
...Like Shawn and Gus!

I guess my forever friend would be Emily, and by "I guess" I mean I know. We've been friends since 2nd grade..so like forever.

Emily and I having fun :)

But there's something about us and different schools. We were friends all through elementary school and enjoyed sock skating, swimming, walking, Barbies (oh yeah), sleepovers, everything! But after our ever so important and life-changing 6th grade graduation we went to different middle schools, and didn't talk our whole 7th grade year. But her school closed down and our friendship reignited in 8th grade. We stayed great great friends 'til graduation when she went to UVU and it was BYU for me. We lamely grew apart yet again, and it saddens me very greatly. Especially since we can't possibly go to the same schools or even be in school forever. In any case, she's in China now and despite drifting apart for the last year, I miss her a lot. A lot a lot.

Thick and Thin Friends

Then there's the thick and thin friends. You know, the friends that will be your friends no matter how many stupid decisions you make, or how rude you are to them, or anything like that. True friends.  These are my thick and thin friends :) With a few additions...you know who you are. I've done some real jerky stuff to these guys, but not only do they forgive me, they never ask for an apology. I don't hang out with them enough...especially for being such awesome people and such outstanding friends.

Best Friends

Then there's best friends. I have a lot of best friends...because I think it's anyone that's not just a "friend friend" You can talk to them about anything. They don't judge you. They listen. They care. They love. My "forever friends" and "thick and thin" friends are most certainly best friends, but I have others as well. Most of my best friends will hopefully become "forever" and "thick and thin" friends, but that's up to time :) And time really does change things. Best friends are the ones that come and go the most, second only to "friend friends". Best friends meet new friends, move, get in relationships, and move on. They're the toughest friends to have, the greatest cause of pain, and the easiest to love.

They're in there <3

Talk to friend. ;)

Another type of friend which often...as in always...overlaps with "best friends" are the talk to friends. For some reason, you can just talk to some people. Others...not so much. Sometimes when you talk to people, everything comes out wrong and nothing comes right, it's like you're venting wrong...and how is that even possible? But it is, with some people...and you have no idea what they think of you afterward, but those are NOT the "talk to friends". Even though, I think a lot of people have a tendency to talk to not-talk-to friends...am I rambling? Yes. Guess you, reader, are NOT a "talk to friend". haha, but these friends are ones that you hide nothing from, because you don't want to, and you don't need to. They care enough to ask, but they don't pretend to care. And more often than not, you don't even have to have any type of serious discussion with a talk-to friend, or even hang out with them that often. When you've snagged a "talk-to-friend," you can just tell. 

Anyway, sometimes friends are hard to understand. Sometimes one friend cares about another too much, sometimes not enough. Sometimes friends hurt each other. Sometimes friends don't mesh as much as they thought. But in any case, friends are friends. To mine, I say thank you. And I give you this
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With love,
Nikole

Gimme Gimme Gimme

I just want to use this super popular blog..to tell the entire world what I want.

• Someone that will know where I am when I disappear, that will find me, and bring me back.
• To see the ocean. To see the ocean with someone. To be brought to the ocean by someone.
• To ride in a plane.
• To ride in a hot air balloon
• To bungee jump
• Sky dive
• To go to a drive-in movie
• Someone to read this list and make one of these things happen...because they're nice like that.
  

Sorry Kids

I was sitting all by me-self remembering all the fun things I did as a kid...and I realized that there are quite a few things that my kids will never enjoy.

1. Awesome Smoke Bubbles.

My parents would always blow their cigarette smoke into bubbles which were so fun and awesome to pop! But my kids will never know the joys. Why? 1.The whole cancer second-hand smoke thing, and 2....I don't smoke.

2. "Drinking" Parties.
My mom taught us kids exactly how to take shots at a young age. NEVER with alcohol, she's not that stupid ;) (Just kidding, I love her!) But we learned the attitude, the actions, how to react to the "burn", how to wash it down with water...stuff like that. Sometimes their buddies would come over and we were the center of attention showing off our "skills" to a group of laughing adults. But I do not drink...and really have no intention to start.

3. Shootin' .

Don't get me wrong, my kids can shoot guns with us as much as they like, because it's super fun! What they will not do, however, is go to a busy campground and shoot beer cans with their Dad with little to no knowledge of gun safety...however that WAS ridiculously fun!

4. Box Love.
Kids should certainly use their imaginations or whatever...but as I recall sitting in a box every single day for HOURS and HOURS on end, I have to wonder how I turned out as somewhat normal as I have. ..I literally just put a box on the lawn and sat in it. Just sat there. In a box. By myself. All day.

5. NICE stuff.

I had my fair share of nice things growing up...A super cool bike (stolen), TWO video cameras for my little movie making phase (broken), a giant beautiful bunk bed (destroyed), an antique toy box (someone's foot went through it), a TOWERING book shelf (shelves split down the center), my own huge stereo (lost...I still can't explain that one), diamond earrings (missing)...

Sorry kids. You're missing out on some good times, but it is what it is.

30-Day Challenge

Okay, here's the stitch..I mean sitch. There's this thing called the "30-Day Challenge" that everybody is doing. Basically you post a song a day for thirty days using certain "criteria". My only beef is that there is nothing challenging about that. SO the title itself is full of lies.

Anywho, I decided to simplify it by taking out all the stupid questions and posting it all at once. Thus, here's a kinda thirty day challengish thingy, but way better because I wrote it. Is that rude of me? Duh. It's me. ;)
Song that makes me happy:  This song describes me. I swear it does!

Song that makes me sad: I don't really listen to music that makes me sad, I feel like that's kinda stupid. No one wants to be sad, right? So here's a song that listen to when I'm already sad.

A song that reminds you of someone: Ashley. Always. :) Oh and I've never seen the music video before, and I must say...weird.

Song you know all the words to: Uh. There's like a zillion, but here's a super good one!

Song people wouldn't expect you to love: .....haha. I love it.

Song you people to play at your funeral:check it.

So there you have it, bam. Go ahead, love it, hate it, appreciate it.